I've done a lot of contemplating and thinking this morning and I'm wondering why am I here? What am I aiming to achieve? Do I really want this round to be another wasted round?
The answers are simple: I'm here to lose weight, I am aiming to achieve a loss of 15kg. No I don't want this to be another wasted round.
So the reason for my contemplating was this last weekend where I had absolutely no self control. On Saturday my mother in law paid a visit (we don't see her often due to the distance between where we live). Lovely lady! Anyway she turns up with clothes for my boys and some clothes for my husband, which we are eternally grateful for. And then she turns to me and hands me 3 containers and says "I feel bad because I never bring you anything, so I've done some baking". Oh Lordy me....There was banana cake, fruit cake and anzac biscuits. And of course I shrugged my shoulders and dug on in. Then our planned lunch went out the window so off I went to take my son to a birthday party and all the food that was laid out was just too much to resist on an empty stomach. I guess on a plus (if there is one at all) I was so stuffed I didn't have dinner that night.
Then Father's day - a sausage sizzle! I did try and moderate my intake of bad food. Then last night my husband asked if we could have Thai for dinner. SIGH.....OK, just let me twist my rubber arm. So he came home with a Penang Beef and a mixed entree....Of course I had absolutely no self control and dug in.
This morning I weighed myself...(I know we're not meant to) and not surprisingly I had gained 2kg since last wednesday! Disgusted with myself I started to dish out the blame...My MIL baked..I couldn't be rude and not eat it. It was father's day. And then as I always do, I start to remind myself that it's not anyone elses fault. It's mine. I need to learn to say NO. I need to remind myself why I'm here, why I need to do this.
So I've pulled my finger out, I've looked at my commitment. I've reminded myself why I'm here, why I started. What I want and need to achieve. I am going to give this round my all! Just like I did in round 1.
On a brighter note, I had a awesome SSS this week, some of the local 12wbt gals got together at one of our local lookouts called The Skillion. It is leg breaking to walk up there, some girls jog it (power to them). So we did our SSS exercises and climbed the skillion in between each exercise. Burnt a cool 713 cals. I had to get home otherwise I would have stayed and burnt the full 1000. Next week!
This is the view from the top of the skillion!
